Msg: 4936 *Conference*

02-11-94 19:24:23

From: JON SHURTLEFF

To : RICHARD HANSON

Subj: REPLY TO MSG #4929 (DRIVE)

Rick,
 
Thanks.  You ARE indeed a very valued and trusted freind.  You 've been witness
to a great deal of what has happened in my life over the  last few years
(nearly 6 or 7 I believe).  I hope you get to see the really positive changes
too as  I put this all behind me.  
 
I find myself in a very awkward point in life as well.  I don 't really
recognize the person that's emerging from this mess but I also feel more like
'myself' than ever.  My religion offers some possible insight into this paradox
in that we beleive we lived before we came here as individuals.  My hypothesis
is that that person has been buried under the burdens of this existance until
now and is finally beginning to surface.  In any case, I'm seeing a lot of
positive changes.  I hope they're welcome by my freinds.  I don't know if
everybody's prepared to deal with stable grown up Jon.  
 
So I find myself starting a lot of new and scary things and trying to put the
old to rest.  On the one hand I've proven that I can do consulting, for
example.  But I've also found out that I've got a lot still to overcome when it
comes to functioning in the everyday world.  But I have a stronger sense of
direction than ever.  So, on the other hand, I'm working